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Last week has been a very dramatic crazy week for me. I can honestly say it was thee worst week ever.

My week last week started off with my mama going crazy on my ass. Never have I ever disrespected my mom growing up and even now that I have my own little family, but last week done did it for me. We got into it, all because I was too busy to answer her calls ALL day Monday...We didn't talked to eachother for a whole week, crazy yeah!?!! I started to feel bad, but my pride took over me LoL.

She finally called me yesterday, she cried so hard saying she misses us and my brother so much and all she wants, is for kids and grand baby to come back home. UGH, I felt really bad. I hate when my mom apologize to me, I HATE IT. I mean who am I? You Know?

Anyways, my mom only has two kids me being the oldest and my big baby brother whose in Missouri right now for basic training for the ARMY, so that leaves my mom by herself back home:(... So don't be surprise if you guys hear about the toiLoLo kLaNN moving back to the Tac-Town:)

My bestie Nola and her kids moved back to Washington. It was a very emotional day for me. She was the only one I had up here, well my other sister Renisha lives here too, but it's like she lives in another state because she lives all the out in Orem. My son misses his bestfriend Cameron so much and always asking for him or when we're gonna pick him up. It's wierd that Nola and the kids aren't here anymore. Especially Cam, because he was always with us, sleeping over all the time. Shawn has bball practice today and he'll be going by himself. It's gonna be really weird not seeing Cam at practice today. Hopefully my baby goes. Cameron was the only reason Shawn would go to bball practice LoL... if Cameron didn't go, Shawn don't go ahaha...it's funny cuz Cameron is younger and smaller than Shawn, but he acts like Shawn's older brother LoL... I miss seeing them together. I Miss my sister Nola, my babies Cameron and Hazel-Nicole like crazy, can't wait to see you guys again..

Work,Work,Work!!! I only work on the weekends now Thurs.Fri.& Sat, and I absolutely love every mintue of it. The reason why I went part-time is because I wanted to stay home with my son, take advantage of him at this age before he starts school.

I've been working full-time his whole life. My son is now four years old and it just hit me that my son needs more than anything. He needs me home with him to teach him the things that he needs to know before he starts school and just being there for him every second. I love staying home during the week with him. I should of thought about this a long time ago, but better late than NEVER right!?!! I have a set schedule for De'Shawn everyday, I really do. Before I went part-time, Junior would let Shawn sleep all day everyday. Shawn would sleep late and wake up super late like one in the afternoon LATE. That doesn't work with mommy, that's a big No No in my book.

I wake him up around 930 or 10am, shower/brush his teeth, clean up, eat breakfast, learn his ABC's, number's, colors, shapes, his name, his primary songs and the list goes on. Than it's mommy and son time, whether is swimming at the rec center, reading a book, watching a movie, walking around the block, window shopping, eating lunch out, just anything that I know is spending quality time with my Shawn. De'Shawn hates when it's learning time LoL... He tries to make all kinds of excuses LoL..." I don't feel good mama" or "I'm tired" or his favorite, but NOT mommy's favorite...he would act like he's stupid, like he don't know anything (that pisses me off) I mean every mother knows their child, when their sick or when something ain't right with them, right?!! LoL well I know my son to dam well to know if he stupid, tired or sick LoL... I love being home with my handsome ALL day and EVERYDAY. I love it... I wouldn't trade it for the world:)

... ANYWAYS BACK TO WORK LOL....

This past weekend was crazy at work. One of my patients coded on me,CRAZY RIGHT!?!!... Coded means stop breathing, like basically dead. I was at the nurses station when I heard over the intercom, "CODE BLUE IN ROOM 120" Of course that was my patient that day, so I ran to his room with the crash cart ( Emergency cart that has all the equipment to save someone's life) My nurse and I checked for a pulse, No pulse. Immediately we started the CPR procedures.

All the other nurses and aides from the other units ran to my station, where my nurse and I were performing CPR trying to bring my patient back to life. Keep in mind this was the first time out of seven years being a nurses assistant this happened to me. No one has ever coded on me like this. I WAS SCARED. I WAS SHAKING, trying to hold in my tears performing CPR praying in my head for my patient to make it. I WAS SO SICK TO MY STOMACH, A LOT OF THINGS RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD AT THE TIME... My Family, My Boy's, My Life.

One of the scariest situations I EVER experienced. Someone's life was in my hands. The hardest thing for me is to tell a family member that their brother/sister/mom/dad didn't make it. Ten minutes into doing FULL code (trying everything to get the patient pulse back) on my patient, a nurse screams out, "STOP!! He's DNR." OMFG I JUST BROKE DOWN AND CRIED. DNR mean DO NOT RESUSCITATE. Which means if the patient coded ( STOP BREATHING), just let them go. So we stopped doing CPR, right when we stopped the patient had a pulse. We called for an ambulance and kept the oxygen on him. My patient was alive when he left the nursing home, but we got the news an hour later that he passed away at the hospital. Even more I cried. Was it my fault? Could I have saved him? Man, I totally lost it that day.

I went outside to get some fresh air, I called Junior and cried to him, telling him what had happened. He didn't know what to say to me but, "I love you babe and it's not your fault."

This is the field I choose to be in, right!?!! I love my job and I Love everything I do, I do it from my heart. I knew what I was getting myself into when I enter the nursing field, but never did I pictured myself in a situation like this especially saving someone's life. BIG wake up cal for me, RIGHT!?!!

After ALL this craziness, Junior took me out on a date. Okay if I could remember, the last time me and Junior went on a date by ourselves was when I was eight months pregnant with our son LoL. Yes, that long. The whole day Friday, we were texting eachother about our date and of course I would ask if my son could come along LoL. Junior was like, really babe!?!! Baby will be okay. It felt so wierd not having our son with us. It's always been us three. I couldn't even let him go when I was saying goodbye to him, I think I made it hard for my baby because he was crying he wanted to come with us Ahaha. My inlaws were like, "Really Tia!?! It's not like your moving away Ahahaha You're going on a date with your husband." LMBO.

Even though it felt wierd not having my baby boy with us that night, it felt so good to spend that alone time with my husband. I'll sneak a phone call or two to check on my son, but it was all good LoL. My love took me to Rodizio GriLL:) OMG, this Brazilian restaurant was the best restaurant I've ate at. Expensive, but worth every bite:) It felt like the good old days when we would always go on dates when Jr would visit me in Washington. Big thanks to my honey for ending my crazy week, GOOD. I love you with all of me and MORE. EXCITED for OUR next date:)

Saturday was my sister inlaw Chynna's 21st birthday and we had her dinner at Simply Sushi( another good place to eat). She loves Hello Kitty so that was her LiL theme that day LoL... After dinner we took her to the Elevate Club. It was way fun. Right when I walked in, that shit was bump'N Ahahaha my kind of club. Now I know where all the blacks be at on the weekends. I thought I'll never find any blacks in Utah, but I was wrong they're all posted downtown LoL....

My crazy ass week ended really good with the people I love most. That's ALL that matters=]