EXCITED MUCH?!

1 MORE FREAKʻN DAY BABY!!

TOMORROW IS THE BIG DAY AND WE CANʻT HARDLY WAIT ANYMORE..THIS IS WHAT WE ALWAYS WANTED AND DREAM ABOUT AND ITʻS FINALLY COMING TRUE.

OUR LIVES WILL CHANGE FOREVER!! BRING IT ON:):):):):):):):):):):):)

#GOD IS SOOOOOO GOOD

GOD IS GOOD

2 MORE DAYS.... YEAH BUDDY!!:)

GOD IS GOOD

3 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!!

GOD IS GOOD!!

6 MORE DAYS!!!

GOD IS GOOD

7 MORE DAYS!!!:)

9 years

Dear Grandpa,

It's been 9 years, today since you passed away. I wish you could be here to witness what's going to happen to our family in the next week. But than I know you'll be right there celebrating with us in spirit. Just know that there's not a day we don't talk or think of you. WE MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH. Can't wait for that day we'll see eachother again. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF ME!!

...God Is Good...

8 MORE DAYS!!!

... God Is Good...

9 MORE DAYS..:)

Cheers to 28 years

Happy 28th Birthday bestie.

Wish you were here so we can celebrate together, but I know Johnny boy and my beautifulz are gonna spoil you rotten in Hawaii...:)

Thank you so much for EVERYTHING you have done for me and my LiL family.

I love you so so sooooooooooooo much to NO END!

Now go get drunk and smoke a blunt for the both of us Aahhahaha...

WORST WEDNESDAY EVVVEERRR!!

TODAY IS ONE OF THOSE DAYS....UGH! I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND RIP MY HAIR OUT!! I WANT TO DRIVE AND NEVER EVER STOP AND IF I DO STOP, I PRAY IT'S SOMEWHERE FAR FAR FROM HERE!!! I WANT TO GET THE HELL AWAY FROM HERE!!!

Letting It Go

[[ I'm going to keep this short and simple]]

If you know me, you know that I am a very stubborn person. It's pretty bad if you ask me. I can hold a grudge for a long time. Lately, I've come to realize that, my attitude and being stubborn doesn't get me anywhere in life. These last couple months, okay let's be real from the month of January up to like last month August [[that's exactly eight months straight]] Nothing but drama been popping off LEFT and RIGHT. I've never in my life been in so much drama and HATED someone so bad EVER.

IT WAS CRAZY!!!!!

Well, these couple weeks I've been thinking a lot about my life, OUR life to be exact, family, friends, people that I had so much anger towards and just LIFE period. I've come to conclusion that: Life is too short and precious to hold any grudges against anyone.

So today, I decided to call Mele and Lola [[ Juniors girl cousins, the main two that I had so much anger and animosity towards for the last 8 months]], but they didn't answered, so I decided to text them apologizing about all the drama that's been going on... whether if I was right or wrong, or they were right or wrong. I knew in my heart that it was the right thing to do to bring peace, comfort, closure with myself.

It's up to them to forgive me, I'm not expecting them to. I'm not expecting them to be my bestfriend or talk to me, NO I DON'T. That's not the reason why I did what I did. I honestly didn't have to do what I did, BUT I WANTED TOO.

In order for me to move on with my life, choose the right and forgive myself, I gotta do what I gotta do and that is to FORGIVE others:)

hErE wE gO aGaIN

Daddy starts his new shift tonight... From ten p.m. to seven in the morning.

So back to sleeping by myself again. Junior worked this shift when we lived in Washington and I hate it so so SO MUCH.

The only reason why he wanted to go back to graveyards is because he would get a higher pay, which will help us out A LOT with our bills.

I am so very grateful and thankful to have such a good husband that cares about me and our son, that will literally give up anything for his family.

I love you so much baby, thank you so much for everything; for being such a hard working man and providing for us. Even though I can be a pain in the ass, your love for me will never change and that's why I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.

i miss you.

**Birthday Shout Out**

Happy Birthday Great Grandma Ma'ava...

Love and Miss you so much... TiLL we meet again mama:)

goTTa MaMa?!

Yep, that's right..

Mama is finaLLy here in Utah, but she ain't staying for good just visiting...BOO!

She hates it here already, I swear this lady LoL..Gotta LOVE her tho:)

WE FINNAH EAT GOOD THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS, SAMOAN FOOD THAT IS:) Ahahahaha...

... Big Boy Status...

Guess who started school?

Yeeuup!! You guessed right!! De'Shawn's first day of preschool was yesterday, he is in the afternoon class which is from 12:30pm to 3:30pm.

I can't believe my baby is NOT a baby anymore, but in my book NO MATTER how old he gets.. I wiLL FOREVER call him my baby.

De'Shawn's first day went very well. De'Shawn's teachers [[Mrs. Benson and Mrs. Magum]] allowed the parents to stay with they're children for the whole first day of school, just so the child can get comfortable and familiar with the teachers and classmates. I absolutely lov'd it. If I could I WOULD so go with him to school everyday, but I did volunteer twice a month to help out in his class, I know I'm such an AWESOME Mom, right?!:)

Shawn is a very shy boy [[ he gets that from his daddy]], Junior and I thought he wasn't gonna participate in anything because he's so shy, but he was very excited, asking questions left and right like DAYUMMMM GINA!! Lmao.
He did such an awesome job listening, paying attention, sharing, and getting to know the other kids. It was like he was NEVER shy before ahaha.... So NOT complaining LoL

Junior and I didn't cry on his first day because we spent the whole day with him in his class,but on the second day... yah that was a different story. It was really really hard for me to let him go. So before we dropped De'Shawn off to school, Jr and I made a deal to just walk in and walk out so it wouldn't be as hard for US and for HIM. Uh ya, that didn't go as planned. Junior went in kissed and hugged him and went straight outside, but than there was me;/.

Kissed.. Checked Hugged.. Checked turned to walk out, but couldn't;(... Standing by the door saying, "Bye baby, see you later" OVER and OVER and OVER AGAIN, "trying" to NOT shed a tear was pretty hard and emotional for me.

Shawn: "Go mama Go. I'm okay."

[[ Uh Ya, that made me cry even mORE.]]

ME: "K baby Mommy loves you. See you after school k... I LOVE YOU Shawn."

Teacher: "He'll be okay, We're gonna have lots of fun together."

ME: [[ literally getting louder]] "Bye baby I Love you. Shawn I Love you!!"

[[ i know ALL bad. Call me DRAMATIC.. I don't care, I couldn't let him go]] It was REALLY hard. Especially when De'Shawn and I have a special bond together. We're ALWAYS together, ever since day one. Letting him go was literally the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. Oh gosh just imagine when he goes to school fulltime, I'll probably go crazy LoL..

Besides all that dramaticNESS lol. I am so happy my baby boy started school after waiting on the waiting list for like thee longest time EVER. We're very excited to see him grow up in this crazy world we live in and succeed in life. No matter what WE will be his #1 Supporter.

When he's HAPPY, We're happy and that's ALL that matter's.

WeLL, It's about that time to pick my handsome up from schooL, can't wait to hear all about his day...

Have a Blessed day my beauitfulz♥

Here are Some pictures of OUR handsome Big Boy... ALL GROWN UP!!

[[FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL]]

[[SECOND DAY OF SCHOOL]]

Happy First and Second Day of PreschooL baby

WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

... A year ALREADY!?!...

I can't believe it's been a year TODAY since We lived here in BOOOOOO-TAHHH. A year since I haven't seen my family[[ insert sad face]]. I swear it felt like just yesterday we were loading our uhaul to move here up. It's crazy how time flies so freak'N fast o_O. I miss my family so much ESPECIALLY my Grandma.

This is when I wish I worked for an airline so I can fly home on my days off or every weekend/ holidays or when I'm irritated with my husband HA.[[ I LOVE YOU BABY BOO]]. And maybe I just want to get the hell away from this suicidal state. I know... DRAMATIC MUCH!.

There are times when I'm by myself I cry and think about the good ol days, like joking around with my cousins knowing that No One is gonna take it to heart. Laughing till our stomaches hurt, crying together/ being there for one another, vent sessions, family dinners/get togethers, fight and make up, just EVERYTHING... I MISS THEM SO MUCH.

I can't wait to see my family again, it's been long OVERDUE.

To my ♥ in Washington..

I LOVE AND MISS YOU GUYS EVERYDAY, JUST KNOW THAT NO MATTER THE DISTANCE YOU GUYS WILL FOREVER HAVE A PLACE IN MY HEART NO MATTER WHAT... I LOVE YOU GUYS TO PIECES.

XOXO, Tiajavay

... sTiLL LaughinG...

De'Shawn's Joke Of The Day...

Lady: "Where are your parents?"

Shawn: ** Looks at the Lady** "Oh my parents are in jail, but I have a brother tho."

Pwahahahahhahaha... this freak'N kid is so RANDOM I swear LoL

Hope this made you laugh, cuz we're STILL laughing our butts off Ahahaha.

GoodNight my BeautifuLz♥

... WhAt'S rEaLLy GOOD...

Besides all the doodoo mama drama that's been going on, Life is actuaLLy treating us Good. I've learned to not worry about negative peopLe/ things that come our way and focus on the positive. And just do me, DO US! Life is too short for aLL that nonsense. Thank God for giving me a handsome humbLe husband to keep me on track, without him I swear I'LL probabLy be locked up right about now Lmao. NBFR.

Two Friday's ago we moved out of Junior' s parents house and got a two bedroom one bath apartment in Kearns and WE ABSOLUTLEY LOVE IT!! Just having our own place/space and doing our own thang whenever we want too, fight/argue without anyone butting in or just staring at us like we're crazy LoL, singing and dancing around the house in Junior's boxers and just being US, oh wait I can't forget the makeup sex part, now we aLL know living with inlaws or just anyone, it's hard to do certain things and be very quite about it, right?! Lmao shoooo don't pLay Ahahaha... BUT, Lord knows we wouldn't want it anyother way.

We got a new car, a black 2007 Tahoe, just perfect for us. Thanks to my inlaws. Payments ain't cute, but it's all good, we just have to sacrifice what we want for what we really need.

First day of schooL was on Wednesday, I wiLL admit I was scared LoL but excited at the same time. I mean it wasn't my first time attending college, but it was my first time going to school here in Utah. I'm aLmost done with my prequistes and than on to the waiting list I go, waiting list is 2 years, but crossing my fingers praying and hoping I get in sooner than that whether it's at Salt Lake Community CoLLege, University of Utah or anywhere that wiLL except me first. I'm excited to finish and become a nurse already.

De'Shawn starts schooL Septemeber 7..Yayeeee I'm so excited for him. He wiLL be attending West VaLLey Elementary for preschooL. I'LL blog about that later and I'LL make sure to take a Lot of pictures too.

DisneyLand is a No Go;( We're sad because we were very excited to see brother Malosi and his beautifuL famiLy, but with all the moving, getting a new car, and schooL starting we decided to push our trip back AGAIN due to our budget. Everyone knows how that goes, so I don't need to explain myself.

Other than, I LOVE MY LIFE. I LOVE MY MY BOYS and My MoLLy girL MORE and MORE everyday to the fuLLest beyond to the MAXX!! No One wiLL EVER change that.

... OuR MoLLy girL..

MoLLy girL is our New edition to our LiL famiLy♥ She is thee cutest puppy I've ever seen.

MoLLy girL is a French PoodLe, weighs 2.8 pounds and is 7 going on 8 weeks.

MoLLy girl is spoiL from Dadddy, Mommy, Shawn and EVERYONE eLse that met her. It's so cute funny cuz Shawn wouLd teLL peopLe that she's his LittLe sister Lmao. I know weird, but since I don't want anymore kids... We think it's thee cutest thing ever.

Since MoLLy can fit in like ALL my purses, We literaLLy take her EVERYWHERE we go, weLL except work and schooL LoL

I mean she's part of the famiLy, right?! Ahaha..

We had two dogs before MoLLy girl, Diamond and Knight, but I didn't want them anymore because

1. Diamond wouLd LiteraLLy poop and pee everywhere in our house and NEVER freak'N Listened to me or anyone and I wasn't having it. We kept her for a week and gave her away for FREE.

2. Knight we onLy kept for one night LoL because he wouLd freak'N cry aLL night and I know dam right I wasn't gonna go another night hearing that shit Again LoL... so we gave him away to Jr's friend at work for FREE.

So, when I got MoLLy girL everyone asked me how Long I was keeping her for and if I decide to give her away to give her to them LoL.. Uh ya, that's NOT happening LoL.. The day I laid eye's on MoLLy, I feLL in love. I knew she was gonna be mines Ahaha. She's such a good cute dog, and does the cutest things ever that just makes me LOVE HER EVEN MORE. She hops everywhere, Not run HOP Lmao.

We took her to get her first shots, trim her naiLs etc... We spent 130 bucks for her to get what she had to get done. On top of that we bought a bed, yep a bed LoL for her; food, treats, and a canaL, but we're NOT done spoiLing our princess Ahahaha...

We Love MoLLy girL so much, she's here to stay FOREVER. WeLcome to our crazy beautifuL famiLy MoLLy girL, You'LL be weLL taken care of...PROMISE:)

... YAYYEE For DADDY...

So, Like my husband is probabLy gonna kiLL me for bLogging about this, but I feeL like I have to, I mean it's ONLY been six Long freak'N year's of studying, faiLing, wasting money LoL my Baby Love FINALLY got his Driver's License. Yayyyeeee baby!! I'm so Happy and Proud of you daddy!

Daddy: " Man babe, I feeL more comfortabLe driving now.. I'm NOT as paranoid as before."

That's good because Now I can sit pretty in the passenger seat whiLe you drive me everywhere beacuse mamaz Driver's License is suspended Lmao. I know ALL bad 0_O.

Not trying to embarrass you Love, just keeping track of our memories:)

P.S. I LOVE YOU!!

Never Goodbye, but See you Later

Missy is one of my favorite nurses at my job. She totally is one of a kind. She moved to to Las Vegas because she got a higher paying job as a travel Nurse. I miss her sooo much. Work is not the same without her especially with all the food she be forever bringing to work everyday. I totally miss that, NOW I have to buy or make my own food to take to work...BOO!! LoL

Hopefully, she hates Vegas and come back here, but again WHO IS GOING TO MOVE BACK HERE ESPECIALLY FROM LAS VEGAS?! I wouldn't!! LoL..

tHis kId

Took a 20 minute nap and woke up to this... Next thing you know Ima wake up to him cooking or burning our house down LoL...SHIT!!

Me: Uh, What do you think your doing?

Shawn: Painting.

Me: Okay, why by the window De'Shawn?

Shawn: So it can dry faster.... LoL

GoTTa ♥ my Shawn..:)

100 yEaRs oLd

MiLLie Mace turned 100 year's old on Thursday.

Millie is one of my residents at work and she is such a sweetheart.

I want to grow old just like her... Happy Birthday Mama Millie. May the the good Lord bless you with many more years to come. I Love You.

pLaNNing OuR LiL FamiLy getAway

So, Junior and I has been going through some craziness in our marriage ( AND NO this has nothing to do with any drama that has been going on) , but we decided to getAway for the week. We totally need this time away to get the spark back that we had when we first met and we need more quality time together again just US 3. I honestly think it's because we just work some much, worry about bills, and our schedule is just not the business. We literally see each other for like an hour and than " It's See You Later." Than everything else ALL ADDS UP. It's Crazy and I hate it. EH, WE BOTH HATE IT.

So anyways, enough of that... So we've been looking for different GETAWAY places in Utah just to go for the weekend and we came to: Park City, Bear Lake, Renting a hotel and just doing us, but we weren't satisfied at all with the choices we had. So We decided to step it up and notch and plan our GETAWAY out of Utah. We're going to Disneyland in August. We're so excited to finally take our De'Shawn. It's going to be all of our first time to Disneyland and WE'RE way excited to just be away from EVERYTHING and EVERYONE and just ENJOYING US;)

In the mean time we're just working and saving up...So August HURRY THE HELL UP:)

... OuR TuRn tO sHiNe...

Excited, Scared, Anxious ALL at the same time, but WE'RE ready for this.

... Been waiting for this too long...BRING IT ON...:)

... My LiL Vacation...

Vegas was the shit!!

[[ This was actually a shirt I bought in Vegas]]

My first time there and I seriously had an AWESOME time with my girls and Mama Cathy. We were living the " Good Life." It felt so good to not worry or stress about ANYTHING, just living my life to the fullest. Literally No Sleep! Shopping! PooL side! Casino! Omarion Concert! Male Strip Club! Hottest Clubs on the Strip! Drinking 24/7 ALL day and Night! Walking for days and eating like there was No tomorrow. Seriously a Vacation to remember and Never Forget.

I'm gonna S T O P talking about my trip to Vegas right now because...

If you know me YOU already know how I roLL and what had happened LoL... Here are "SOME" pictures from my trip Ahaha... ENJOY Bitches!:)

[[ DAY 1. Just Got To Vegas]]

[[ Finna Get Ready For The Strip Club]]

[[ Us ALL Ready To Go See Balls Swing Everywhere Lmao]]

[[ OUR View At Night From Our Room]]

[[ View During The Day]]

[[ OUR PooL At Night ]]

[[ Pool during the Day]]

[[ Our Motto: GOTTA HAVE IT DAY& NIGHT LoL]]

[[ Having A Drink]]

[[ The Strip.... Walking, Eating, Drinking, and Shopping]]

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