... Feeding the homeless...

...OMG! This was the BEST and UNFORGETTABLE experience EVER...

Tuesday December 28, 2010, Jr and I were off so we only planned to go take family pictures and take De'Shawn to Classic skating ( $2 every Tuesday after 4pm, so take your kiddies). That was all we had on our agenda for that day. When we were getting ready to go take our family pictures, I recieved a text message from Barbara ( Jr's aunty) stating that her and her beautiful family were going to feed the homeless around four and if we wanted to come with. I told Jr about it and he agreed to go help. So we had to change our schcdule just a little bit that day.

We got ready and went to take our family pictures and went to eat lunch before we headed out to aunty Barbara's house. When we got to Barb's house it was 3:00pm and we had to be at the shelter at 4:45pm so we had a lot of time to play the Wii ( Let's dance) while we waited for uncle Tia and his kids and Chynna.

When we were driving to the homeless shelter I was really irritated and annoyed with my boys and really didn't want to go anymore. I kept telling Jr to turn the car around and take me home, but he like totally ignored and mute me out completely. I was pissed! Till, when we got to downtown Salt Lake City was when it hit me bad, I wasn't so mad like before. All I seen were people sleeping on sidewalks, holding up signs seeking for food and help, handicaps pushing their own wheelchairs with bags all around it. I was so speechless staring out my window. I wanted to cry, but I just couldn't.

When we were looking for a parking, I seen a group of people running towards the shelter to stand in line to be fed. Honestly, I've never seen anything like that in my life. I mean, of course I seen random people standing on the side of the roads holding up signs and what not, but never have I seen people especially handicaps sleeping up and down a street in this kind of weather, random people running as fast as they could just to stand in a line waiting to be fed. There was so many people trying to get in, but there wasn't enough space and food to feed everyone. Ugh, my heart literally broke into pieces.

When I walked in the shelter, the first thing that I seen were many sad faces staring at me. The looks on these peoples faces broke my heart to pieces. Right than and there I felt my emotions coming and I knew I wouldn't have any control over it. I started crying. Tears rolling down my face nonstop, like literally. I was trying so hard to hold my tears in, but I couldn't. I literally cried when I enter the shelter till we left.

There was this one girl there LoL... her name was Leilua, but everyone there were calling her Roxie. When I was crying she kept yelling out, E teiene, why you crying? Are you crying because we're homeless? Than she goes, tiene I'm not homeless I live in Rose Park I just came back from eating at Olive Garden and I fed everyone in here. LOL... I couldn't help but just smiled. She was trying to give me her victoria love spell body spray ( my favorite), but of course I wouldn't take it because that ain't me. I knew she was putting up a front maybe because she was embarrassed or ashame because she didn't want us to know that she was one of them ( homeless), but we weren't stupid. We knew what was up, but didn't treat her any different, yah know?!?!!. Leilua was such a character that day. I swear I would cry and laugh cry and laugh because this girl LoL.. We talked like we knew eachother for thee longest time LoL... The best part was when she was gone trynna get at uncle Tia Lmbo...

This right here be the ONE & ONLY Leilua A.K.A Roxie:)

AND THAN.... It was prayer time....

The homeless people were praying for everyone except for themselves.

Right when the guy ( I totally forgot his name) said AMEN, I kid you not, all I seen were people rushing to the lunch line and started making their food. Keep in mind they were suppose to get called up by name or I believe by rows. The menu that day was frozen pizza, frozen sandwitches, and I think a roll with chicken soup ( I might be wrong). OMG, when I found out that the food was frozen even more I cried. Like seriously, I know they homeless people and will do anything for food, but that doesn't mean treat them like animals. There was no microwaves to warm anything up I swear I seen a stove, but I guess they didn't want us using it. All kinds of bad. Ugh, so messed up I swear. These poor people ate everything like it was fresh out of the oven. Not to mention, they were only allowed to get one pizza or one sandwitch. They weren't allowed to have both.

This is one of the many experiences I will forever cherish in my heart. I'm so glad my husband ignored and muted me out that day because honestly if he would of listened to me and turned the car around I wouldn't be blogging about his event right now, right? LoL... This whole experience made me realize what Life is really all about and to be thankful for everything I have and not want/ live in someone else's life.

To not take anything for granted especially God and family. To not complain about the littlest/ stupidest things that really don't count in life. To be honest, I do complain a lot about everything. Whether I have it or want to get it, I'm forever complaining about it. I complain about my job, about my family, about my car, about the things I want, but can't have because we have so much bills that need to be paid and what not, dude when it comes down to it I'm forever complaining about EVERYTHING.

I've never noticed it till now. So sad, yeah?!! It took this experience for me to realize that while I'm complaing about my life there are many people out there that don't have jobs and are dying to get one, people out there in this world that don't have roofs over there heads, living under trees and shacks, people out there that are walking and pushing their wheelchairs to get from A to B. And I'm over here just complaining about my life... Like seriously, am I that selfish? Man this is a lifetime lesson learned. I will forever remind myself to live my life to the fullest and chrish every little thing that I have because LIFE is PRECIOUS... 2010 was a rough year for me and I'm forever thankful I ended it by giving and helping others. I can't wait for the next feeding:)

My humble husband and crazy son helping...So proud of them:)

Aunty Barb and some of the kids helping out. So cute them..

Rita and Charlie fighting over who was going to pass out the lunch trays LoL

These three were thee bestest helpers ever & helping me by getting me tissues every 2mins and telling me everything was going to be okay. I love them too much...

We ended the night at Classic Skating for the kids... Here are some pictures enjoy...:)

... I can't believe i missed this:(...

This past Sunday my son graduated from nursery. He's a big boy now (tears) starting next week Sunday he will be attending the primary class. I'm so excited for him... Unfortunately, Jr and I didn't go to church on Sunday because we had to take care of some business before Jr had to go to work. Till this day I still don't forgive myself for not attending my baby's graduation:( I know you guys are probably thinking it was only a nursey graduation, But still I wanted to be there to cheer my baby on. I'm suppose to be his #1 fan and support him in everything and anything he does. Plus, I only have one baby and he only graduates once from nursery. I'm not gonna see that again unless I have more kids ( which is not gonna happen). Good thing his grandparents were there to cheer him on:)

My mother inlaw said it was way cute how they played the graduation song while the kids marched in and the bishop called them one by one to get their certificate. My son didn't want to go up because he was too shy LoL ( he get's that from his dad) so he he made his grandma go up and get it for him. Hopefully this shyness will go away soon. Since I didn't go to my babys little graduation, I made him put his cap holding his certificate so I can take his picture and than I took him to the family dollar ( his favorite store ever) to pick out whatever he wanted LoL. So cute his cap. I almost cried.

I'm so proud of my baby. I love you son and I'm sorry for not attending your graduation. This will NEVER EVER HAPPEN AGAIN MY LOVE.

Proud Military Sister...

My mom has two kids, me being the oldest and my little BIG brother Mogaka, but we call him "Mo" because he hates his name LoL.. Till this day I still ask my mom what she was thinking when she named my brother MO-GA-KA, you know like more kaka?!! LMFAO just kidding brother you know I love you nigga.. Ahaha... Anyways, my brother is joining the military (ARMY), matter of fact he already sworn in. NOW he just waiting to leave for basic training in Missouri the end of January. I still can't believe my brother is actually in the Army, but I know this is what he always wanted and I support him 100% in everything he does. I can't wait to go see him off for his basic training next month. I know I'm gonna cry my eye's out, but don't get me wrong those will be tears of joy.

I'm so proud of my brother and all his accomplishments he has made these couple years. He came a long way and is finally pursuing his career. I'm so proud to call him my brother, I know he will do AWESOME in this field. I wish him NOTHING but the BEST and NEVER give up bro! I'm gonna miss him so much, but I know he's gonna have a blast exploring this crazy world. I LOVE YOU BROTHER MORE THAN WORDS ♥

UPDATE!!!...

So I finally found some time to sit down and actually write and finish the blogs that I started and NEVER posted in the last couple months:/... I swear I've been so busy trying to get situated with our BIG move from Washington to Utah, work, school, baby, and of course my oldest child....my husband!;).... So since I have some MEEH time, I'm going to finish & edit those old blogs AND actually post them;).... AND than I'll update YA'LL on some Toilolo Business here in UTAH....:)

... NEVER GOODBYE, BUT SEE YOU LATER....

This is one of the hardest sadiest blogs I'm about to write so bare with me... I'm seriously balling my eyes out trying to keep myself together;(...ugh.... HONESTLY, I don't even know where to start, but i guess I'll just write whatever comes in mind and go with the flow. HERE I GO... My boy's and I are packing and getting our stuff ready to move back to Utah. I told my husband and i PROMISED myself that I wasn't going to move back till my school is ALL done& finished with, but I guess that didn't go through. When we came back from the Toilolo's Family Reunion my husband was ready to move back home because he missed his family so much...I felt really bad because I NEVER seen him so sad and actually cried to me about how he felt and what he wanted to do... and that's what he wanted to do... move back to Utah to be with his family, but he wanted me to be on the same page as him. I didn't know what to say so without thinking I said, " Yes, we'll move back." Just because I can't stand to see my boy's look/feel so sad or just knowing that something is hurting them. That's one thing about me, I always put my husband and son before anything or anyone no matter what. It didn't hit me till NOW...our last week in Washington trying to get our jobs, school, baby's stuff transfer. Packing saying goodbye to our very first apartment as a family together. This is so hard for me sometimes I can't even think straight or breathe.

Our plan is all jacked up. I told my husband I hope this is a good idea.... I don't want to regret anything when we get to Utah. But as always Jr feeding me with all the good stuff and more I just want to leave. I'm so worried because I don't want to quit school or have to start over when I get to Utah. I don't want to live with my inlaws ( NOTHING AGAINST MY INLAWS), but now that we finally live on our own, have our own little space to do whatever and whenever we want is the best feeling ever. I refuse to live with anyone else or downgrade Unless I really have too, you know what I mean?... Anyways, As it get's closer for us to leave Washington, families, and friends my heart aches ...( wiping my tears)... It makes me want to change my mind about leaving, but I can't. I worry so much about EVERYTHING it's crazy. My family and friends tell me all the time that I think too much and that I need to relax, but that's just me...it comes natural to me whether if it's family, friends, just anything and everything let it be known I will worry about it... wierd, but that's just how I am. This move is the biggest thing on my shoulder right now besides all the other important stuff it's literally driving me nuts... so not funny. Everyday I try to be positive and not so much negative about this whole situation. So I'm gonna pray about it and leave it in God's hands... wish us luck!:)

... I need a job...

Just a little something to laugh about before ya'll head for bed. How about I caught my son going through my purse taking my driver's license and all my important stuff out and putting it in his batman bag pack...

Me: Dae, what the heck are you doing? Grrrrrr

Dae: what mama? I need this cuz I need a job!!

me: LHL you better not lose my stuff or your gonna get it & YES, you do need a job LMBO

Ahahahaha... I'm still laughing my butt off writing this blog. I love this kid to death;)

NIGHT ♥

BABE...

I HATE SLEEPING ALONE AT NIGHT WHEN YOU GO TO WORK!;( UGH- I FEEL SO LONELY EVERYTIME & EVERY NIGHT WHEN YOUR NOT NEXT TO ME!!!;( I MISS & LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH LOVE.

P.S.

DEAR,

HEAVENLY FATHER PLEASE GUIDE MY HUSBAND AND GIVE HIM THE STRENGTH THAT HE NEEDS TO PREFORM HIS DUTIES AT WORK TONIGHT AND PLEASE BRING HIM HOME SAFE TO US TOMORROW MORNING. THANK YOU FOR BLESSING MY FAMILY.

*AMEN*

GOOD NIGHT WORLD!!!:) SWEET DREAMS ♥

... Father's Day...

This year I didn't do anything for Jr for Father's Day. I felt really bad because this was his first Father's Day that I actually didn't do anything for him. No breakfast, No gift, No QT together, NOTHING!!! Just a kiss, hug, & wished him a Happy Father's Day. REALLY? My baby deserves way MORE than that. He works so hard to support & gives us whatever we want and need... and this was all I had for him. I really felt bad!!!;( I had to work that day too, even worst! When I got off we went to grandma's house with the family to have tona'i. All Jr wanted was to be with me and baby. He told me to not worry about anything as long as me & baby are happy & healthy!!!;) Jr is such a humble person, he doesn't ask for much. He totally understood our situation at the time. I promise him I was going to make it up to him, I don't know when but I will!!;) I love you baby, your the BEST husband & father EVER!!! MWUUAAAAAHHH ♥

... It's FUNNY...

HOW females NOW days don't give a dam if a niggah is married & has kids, they still try to holla at them!!! Like seriously, you REALLY thought my husband wasn't going to tell ME!!! AND... I thought you was a FRIEND!!! You is triffilin!!! You cannot break us!!!! He ain't like the other niggahz out there. He LOVES his wife, son, & his family!!! JUST STOP ALREADY & kick ROCKZ bebe girl!!;) LML * WORD*

... Relay for LIfe 2010!!!;)

HERE ARE SOME PICTURES FROM THE RELAY OF LIFE!!!;)

WE LOVE OUR SURVIVORS!!!;)

TO BE CONTINUE...

... I'm BAAACK!!!;)

It's been FOREVERZ since I last blogged. "NO BUENO!!!" I started blogging lastnight, but I hella knocked out after the first paragraph LOL... the last time I blogged was like two months ago when I was bebe hungry!!! Ahaha, KEY WORD: "WAS" LOL nbfr I realized that having another kid right now is not a good idea especially with all our BILLS, BILLS, BILLS & this living from paycheck to paycheck is not cutting it for us. Don't get me wrong, we're gonna have more kiddies, but life is just hard right now for us and the ecomony is RIDICULOUS. We don't want to make things more harder than it already is, daedae is good enough for now.

HERE ARE SOME UPDATES SINCE THE LAST POST:

- School is finally OVER!!;) Well spring quarter is over LOL. I passed ALL my classes & yes even BOOBOO ARSE MATH LOL...nbfr, I passed with a 2.0 which is a "C" go enough to move on to the next math that I need to pass with a "B" to get in the nursing program. UGH- i HATE math with a passion. For some reason it doesn't seem to stick in my head. But anyways, it was a very stressful 3 months of school for me, but BIG thanks to the man above for ALL his guidence and blessing me everyday with the strength and knowledge to push myself to finish strong. Without him, NOTHING is possible!! Summer Quarter starts on the 21st of June *YIKES* that's next week Monday!!! DAMIT to HELL, so not ready for it!!!;/ But than again I need to suck it up and get it over with so I can get on that waiting list & closer to where I want to be in life!!!;) While I'm waiting for Summer quarter to start, I'm basically spending EVERY hour & minute with my favorite boyz in the whole world & working A LOT of hours to save up for the Toilolo reunion coming up next month. Summer quarter is my last quarter till I get on that waiting list for the nursing program & I CAN'T WAIT!!!:)

-My boy cousin Tugi turned 21 this passed weekend. We went bowling for him & I've never seen him act FOOL in my life. LOL He was so happy that he didn't have to hide & drink from everyone and dey mama LOL... He kept saying "LUA KASI" all night LOL this guy is comedy Bwahahaha...

- My husband, son & I went to the "Relay For Life" for everyone, anyone that has, had, or know anyone that suffered from cancer. It was a wonderful experience to witness the hearts of love ones that came out & support this special event. Looking forward for 2011 Relay!!;)

- Jr's uncle Pete & his son Austin came from Hawaii for Austin's football camp at the University of Washington. It was finally nice to meet my mother inlaws brother & his son. Uncle Pete also did Jr's tat, which I love!!!;) It was nice spending time with them wished they could of stayed longer. Looking forward to see them again in August for grandma Lopine's birthday!!!')

- Today my LIL cousins Samu, EJ & nephew's Noah, Mykah graduated from kindergarden. So proud of them. I was so mad because I didn't get a chance to go to it because of work, but I was there spiritually. Congratz boy's, I love you four more than anything. Looking forward for more graduation's this week & weekend!!! Well, I can't think of anything else right now, but when I do I'll keep ya'll posted!!!;)

... NEVER say NEVER...

Lately, I been really thinking about having another baby, but I just can't. Well at least not right now. Maybe, when I'm done with school, we can have another baby, so that way we can be well situated,financially set and stable. So we're definitely aiming for next year LOL. My husband been hounding me about baby #2 for thee longest time. Jr told me that, he wants his lil princess. AWWW, so cute him! The funny thing is that, I always told myself I'm NEVER going to have anymore kids. That De'Shawn was going to be my only child. Well, I totally lied to myself LOL.
After witnessing the births of my beautiful neices and handsome nephews really got me thinking about starting on baby #2. They're sooo precious. Especially when I shop at Target or Old Navy, they have the cutest kids clothes ever. Plus, my De'Shawn is growing up way too fast and he hates when I call him "baby," but I STILL do. He wants to be called and be treated like a BIG boy. *Tearz* my baby is not a baby anymore. That's a sign for me to start on baby # 2. Now that I have these instincts about having another baby. I told myself to NEVER say NEVER again.

ISN'T HE SO PRECIOUS? BABY HUNGRY, MUCH?!?!

... A LiL uPdAtE...

So, like ever since school started, I've been really stressed out about everything. School started 2-3 weeks ago and already I have non-stop homework everyday, quizzes/ tests every other day and essays/ projects every week. I know, right!?! That's college for yah! On top of ALL that I still work full-time and carter to my boys needs as a full-time wife and mommy. Can you say CRAZINESS!?! My schedule is all booked out for the next two months. If I'm not at work or school, I'm at home with my bEbEz chill'n and spending QT together. The bad thing about it; is that I take all my frustrations out on my husband. ALL he does is sit there and let me. I get so mad at him when he does that because I feel like he doesn't care or is not paying any attention to me! DRAMATIC MUCH!?!?!LOL... It pisses him off that I feel that way especially when I tell him he doesn't care.hehe. I mean don't get me wrong, I know my husband cares A LOT and supports me all the way with school and everything I'm trying to accomplish in life. It's just that I'm so overwhelmed with everything ALL at once. So I attack him. I know, that's not a good excuse, but my husband know's what I'm going through and he knows that I love him no matter what. Eh, it's hard for me to explain myself sometimes. ANYWAYS...LOL...

No one said it was going to be easy. I just need to maintain a positive attitude and do my BEST! I know ALL this stressing out and being frustrated with the world is going to pay off in the long run . WISH ME LUCK ♥

...SUNDAY...

TODAY WAS A BEAUTIFUL SABBATH. MY POOR HUSBAND GOT OFF WORK AT 7AM AND CHURCH DIDN'T START TILL 9AM, OF COURSE HE WAS WAY TIRED, BUT HE STILL GOT READY AND WENT WITH US TO CHURCH. ON OUR WAY TO CHURCH WE DECIDED TO STAY FOR SACRAMENT AND SUNDAY SCHOOL. WE NEVER STAY FOR SUNDAY SCHOOL. WE JUST GO FOR SACRAMENT AND LEAVE AFTERWARDS...

SACRAMENT WAS NICE. THE TALKS WERE WAY SWEET AND WE FELT THE SPIRIT. THIS SUNDAY WAS ALSO OUR FIRST TIME PAYING TITHING AND FELT SO GOOD ABOUT IT.

THAN IT WAS TIME FOR SUNDAY SCHOOL. FIRST, I TOOK SHAWN TO NURSEY. I THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA CRY AND NOT WANT ME TO LEAVE. BUT HE WAS ACTUALLY GOOD. HE WHISPERED IN MY EAR FOR ME TO GO TO MY SCHOOL( THAT'S WHAT HE CALLED IT) THAT HE WAS GOING TO STAY WITH HIS FRIENDS.LOL I THOUGHT THAT WAS WAY TOO CUTE.

AS I WAS LEAVING TO GO TO MY CLASS, I COULDN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT MY SON. I THINK I WAS MORE SCARED THAT I WAS LEAVING HIM BY HIMSELF WITH RANDOM PEOPLE. I KNOW THEIR OUR CHURCH FAMILIES, BUT KEEP IN MIND THIS WAS OUR FIRST TIME STAYING FOR SUNDAY SCHOOL. AS PARANOID I WAS, I KEPT CHECKING IF MY SON WAS OKAY ...

FINALLY SISTER PHILLIPS TOLD ME TO NOT WORRY THAT IF ANYTHING HAPPENS SHE WAS GOING TO LET ME KNOW. I FELT A LITTLE BETTER AFTER SHE TOLD ME THAT, BUT I WAS STILL WORRIED. AFTER SUNDAY SCHOOL I WENT TO CHECK UP ON MY SON BEFORE I WENT TO RELIEF SOCIETY.

I TOOK HIM TO USE THE BATHROOM AND MADE SURE HE WAS ALRIGHT. ON OUR WAY TO THE BATHROOM HE MENTIONED THAT HE WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME WITH THE KIDS AND HE KEPT THANKING ME. BEFORE HE WENT BACK IN NURSEY HE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID, "MAMA I'M OKAY."

I WANTED TO CRY, BUT I DIDN'T BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO LOOK STUPID. AFTER MY SON TOLD ME THAT, ALL MY WORRIES DISAPPEAR.

AFTER CHURCH WE CAME HOME AND KNOCKED OUT. WE DIDN'T EAT, I WAS SURPRISED BUT WE WERE TOO EXHAUSTED.

WE WOKE UP ATE DINNER & ENDED OUR SABBATH WATCHING ALVIN & THE CHIPMUNK'S. THAN IT WAS TIME FOR DADDY TO GO TO WORK...BOO!! WE SAID A PRAYER AS A FAMILY AND OFF HE WENT. WE LOOK FORWARD TO GO TO CHURCH NEXT SUNDAY AND HOPEFULLY I'M NOT AS PARANOID AS I WAS TODAY LOL.

... wHERe dID tIME gO!?!!....

DE'SHAWN IS NOW 3 YEAR'S OLD..

HiS BIRTHDAY WAS ON FEBRUARY 5, 2010...

IT'S AMAZING HOW FAST HE'S GROWING...

LAST TIME WE LOOK, HE WAS JUST A LITTLE BABY...

WE MISS THOSE DAYS;( AT THE SAME TIME WE'RE GAINING MORE BEAUTIFUL

MEMORIES AS HE GROWS...

WE WISH HE COULD STAY LIKE THIS FOREVER, BUT

WE LOVE TO WATCH HIM GROW, IT'S SUCH A BEAUTIFUL THING;)

NOW, HE'S FOREVER TALKING AND ACTS LIKE HE GROWN! LOL

I THINK IT'S FUNNY, WELL NOT THE TALKING PART LOL!!

IT CAN BE ANNOYING SOMETIMES LOL!!! BUT OTHER THAN THAT

I LOVE MY SON AT THIS AGE.

DE'SHAWN IS NOW:

45 POUNDS AND 4FT.

HE IS TOTALLY OFF THE CHART.LOL... BEEN OFF THE CHART FROM DAY ONE.

DE'SHAWN IS THEE MOST RANDOMNESS KID I'VE EVER KNOWN.

(HE GETS IT FROM HIS MAMA AHAHA..)

NBFR, THIS KID SPEAKS HIS MIND. WHETHER IF IT'S GOOD OR BAD

HE'S GONNA SAY IT.

EVERYDAY WHEN I COME HOME FROM WORK OR SCHOOL,

HE ALWAYS GREETS ME BY SAYING " I MISS YOUR BOOTY BEBE!" LOL...

AT THE SAME TIME

HE IS SUCH A GREAT HELPER, VERY OBEDIENT, AND A GOOD LISTENER.

HE LOVES TO CLEAN, BUT NOT HIS ROOM LOL...

HE LOVES TO READ...

HE LOVES TO PLAY WITH HIS COUSIN'S ...

HE LOVE'S THE SUPER HERO SERIES...

HE LOVE'S MOCKING ME EVERYTIME I YELL AT HIM...LOL!

HE'S VERY PICKY WHEN IT COMES TO FOOD!!

HE CAN EAT RICE ALL DAY.

HAMBURGER HELPER AND SCRABBLED EGGS IS HIS FAVORITE .

EVERYTHING ELSE IS GROSS TO HIM.

HE HATES WHEN HE GET'S NO ATTENTION...

HE HATES WHEN I WAKE HIM UP EARLY IN THE MORNING LOL.

HE SERIOUSLY HATES WHEN HIS DADDY & MOMMY ARE MAD AT EACHOTHER.

IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE DE'SHAWN KNOWS ACTUALLY WHEN WE'RE IN THIS

SITUATION. HE MAKES US APOLOGIZE TO EACHOTHER.

IT'S WAY CUTE. LIFE WOULDN'T BE THE SAME WITHOUT HIM.

HIS FAVORITE SONG IS, "JESUS LOVES THE LITTLE CHILDREN'S"

FAVORITE COLORS ARE RED & BLUE.

HE LOVES DANCING TO HIS DADDY'S SONGS.

DE'SHAWN HAS A UNIQUE PERSONALITY I WOULDN'T CHANGE FOR THE WORLD.

HE BRINGS JOY AND COMFORT TO OUR HOME.

WE ARE SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE DE'SHAWN AS OUR SON.

WE GIVE GLORY TO HEAVENLY FATHER EVERYDAY FOR BLESSING US WITH A HANDSOME OUTRAGEOUS SON. WE PRAY THAT HEAVENLY FATHER CONTINUES

TO GUIDE AND BLESS DE'SHAWN TO GROW AND LEARN TO BE

A GREAT SON THAT HE IS.

OUR LOVE FOR YOU SON IS MORE THAN WORDS ITSELF.

... fOR eTeRniTY...

On March 27,2011 my husband & I along with my handsome baby boy are getting sealed to the Salt Lake City Temple in Utah!

I mentioned in one of my blogs before this one, that my husband & I were going to renew our vows and have a BIG celebration. Well, before I got baptized the Elder's were teaching me about temples that families can be together forever. Getting sealed in the temple is like renewing our vows again, but it's more deep. Instead of saying to death to us part. We say for all to ETERNITY.

These words are so beautiful and strong. I thought to myself, "man, it's amazing how everything is falling in place for my lil family and I if we just keep our faith and continue to serve the Lord.

This is what I always wanted. I wanted to renew our vows and have that BIG wedding every girl dreamed about.

AND to know that I'm going to be with my boyz forever just brings joy to my heart.

WE'RE so EXCITED for our special day...

This is our MAIN goal as a family we're aiming to ACHIEVE.

Just thinking about this event gives me butterflies and goosebumps.

WE can't wait to make this PROMISE with God and to EACHOTHER.

♥ my family to the FULLEST!

... mISS'n tha 801 state...

I've Never thought I'll say this, but I SERIOUSLY miss UTAH!!;(

I miss the beautiful weather in the Fall, Spring, and the Summer season. It's so pretty. Winter in the other hand I dislike strongly LOL... I can't stand snow and when it snow's in Utah during winter, it SNOW'S!!!

I hate Utah in the begining just because I wasn't use to the environment. BUT, after living there for almost three year's, I got use to everything and I will move back in a heart beat. Utah is a nice family orientated state for people that's all about family. People say there's NOTHING to do in Utah or Utah is so BORING, but it's what you make of it. It's how you live your life.

Anyways, lately my husband been nagging me for us to move back to Utah ever since we moved back to washington. It breaks my heart to see or hear that my husband is homesick. I've been there and trust me it's not a good feeling. I'm not a selfish person, especially when it comes to my boyz.

So therefore, I made a promise to my husband that, when I finish school ( that'll be next year 2011) we are moving back to Utah for good. Of course my husband was happy to hear that, but he was hoping it was going to be sooner than that LOL...but i told him not to worry, to be patient it'll be worth the wait. My son is ready too...LOL... he misses his papa & gma A LOT! De'Shawn is forever asking us to take him to Utah especially when he's mad at us...LOL.

WE'RE SO EXCITED FOR THE TOILOLO'S FAMILY REUNION THIS JULY. WE ARE SO COUNTING DOWN THE MONTHS, WEEKS, & DAYS. We need this little vacation with our families and we DEFINITELY can't wait to MOVE back to STAY: )

...A waLk tO rEMEmBER...

I LOVE the elder's so MUCH!

TrulY BLESSED to have them in my LIFE...

Grandma Lopine, MEEH, Mom...

I gave my father inlaw the honor to baptised me. It meant so much to the BOTH of us!

Grandma Lopine was sooo HAPPY for the BOTH of US!

WE came a LONG way..

My Utah Family!! They're such good supporters & AWESOME inlaws. I will ALWAYS

Love them to no END!

My washington Aiga. Thank you guys so much for the

Love & Supoort! It meant so much to me to see mY family there!

It was a very emotional day for me. I was trying to hold back my tears, but it

didn't work.LOL.. It was a very spiritual & awesome baptism.

This was my talk I gave after my baptism:

mY tESTimOnY...

God has been a part of my life from day one. I grew up in a christian family all my life. I went to church every Saturdays. To me I always thought I had to go to church because I didn't have a choice. I called it being force, but in my mom's eyes it was a way for me to get to know Heavenly Father & to understand & strengthen my relationship with him. Of course, I kept in my mind that it was just a routine we had to do every Saturdays. At the same time I knew & was taught that Jesus died on the cross for our sins.

I guess you can say that I knew the gospel was true, but didn't advantage of it and keep going forward the right direction. That was my mistake. I think that as us Christians, we sometimes forget how mighty God’s power is. With our busy schedules and hurried lives, not many people take time to remember how much God is in our lives every single day.

Basically, I was one of the many people's out there that took heavenly father for granted. I was the many people out there that just called on him when I'm in trouble. I knew deep down in my heart that it wasn't right for me to only long for his heeling hands only when I needed him, But at the same time I knew that He would always be there to get me through my obstacles. I don’t think I was realizing God’s full power until I moved back to Washington.

I had so many mixed emotional running through my body. The first couple months we lived here I truly believe Heavenly Father put my family & I through many rough roads to test how strong our faith in God. I felt so miserable!! I felt I couldn't go on anymore. I felt like giving up everything, but than again I've never witnessed so many blessings in my life when I actually took the courage to kneel down & prayed with all my heart, with all my soul, with all of me asking for forgiveness & asking Heavenly Father to show me the way, to lead me to the right path of righteousness.

When I lived in Utah I had many opportunities to be baptized, but as stubborn I was I didn't take the chance. I was to worried about what my family, friends, & everyone will think and say about me. I think I was mostly scared to lose the people that means so much to me & not having them in my life.

There's a verse that I can simply relate to: Psalm 23:4 says “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me…” When I first read this verse I seriously felt the true meaning of the unconditional love that Heavenly Father has for everyone of us. That through him everything and anything is possible. Just take the chance to ask HIM to take control of your life and to help you with any obstacles that you think or may not be able to handle. Trust me he will answer...

I am so thankful & grateful for the gospel. & for the missionaries out there that sacrifices everything just to preach and teach his word. I'm growing so much and God is showing me THE WAY to strengthen my testimony by being baptized today as a stronger Christian than ever. It enables me to answer confidently to anyone who asks if I’m Christian and if I have been baptized. The many stories behind my reasons may not be my own story but it is personal enough to affect my life. I will always thank God for the many trials that he put my family & myself through to get us where we are today. God has played a huge role in my life these couple past months. Blessings & Miracle affected my family less than a year and today I have been able to repay, though only a very tiny portion, of the great things God has done for my family by being baptized and pledging to dedicate my life to God.

I want to give thanks to my amazing families here in Washington & my family that came all the way from Utah to support & witnessed this special event in my life. I've never felt so blessed and important to have such beautiful people like you guys to stand by my side with hearts full of encouragements & energetic for the gospel. I wouldn't ask to share this special bond we have with anyone else & I pray that Heavenly Father continues to bless each & everyone of you guys everyday.

I know in my heart that the church of JESUS CHRIST OF LATTER DAY- SAINTS &book of Mormon is true & I know Heavenly Father lives. I know Jesus Christ is my Savior. I also testify that Joesph Smith is a true prophet that LIVED & seen God.

I believe that we have a prophet today,THOMAS S MONSON-I have strengthen my testimony to know these things are true, & I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ Amen...