...bRiNG iT oN [2010]...

Every year people tend to make new year resolutions & never stick to them! I'm one of those many people that procrastinate when it comes to achieving long or short term goals in life! This year is on like donkey Kong...hahaha! I've never been so determined & motivated to make this enormous change in my life! To better NOT ONLY myself, but to be able to live a happy life with my family!

People always tell me that talking is cheap & that I should prove to them that I can do it! When they see it, they'll believe it!

I use to think that was true! I use to let people's negativity get to me.. take over the BEST of me! I'm so over ALL that non-sense! I don't need to prove to ANYONE but MYSELF how far I can go in Life! I know I can do it with or without them! I've learned to ignore & look to push forward in a better future! Now days, I just need to keep reminding myself that those kind of people are not going to get me where I want to be in life & continue DOING ME! Don't let THEM get the BEST of me cause it's only going to bring me down & make me want to quit EVERYTHING! All that matter's the most are the people that support and stand by my side ALL THE WAY!

• My Motivations: MY FAMILY! MY HUSBAND! MY SON!

They made me the person that I am today! A strong beautiful independent women! Everything I do I do for my family & continue to strive for the BEST!

Goals:

1. Get baptized to my husband's church & have a closer relationship with HEAVENLY FATHER!

2. Finishing my pre-requisites for L.P.N & get into Nursing school!

3. Lose weight! {170}

I know if I keep my Faith in God.. everything & anything is possible!

...dEaLInG wiTH iT...

So like, it's 2 am in the morning & i can't sleep! So guess what!?! Time for another blog...LOL... boredom can get to ya, you know!?! Especially when daddy is at work!

Speaking of that, I don't know if I've ever mentioned that I hate my husband's work schedule .. one word- ANNOYING! I mean, don't get me wrong or anything, I'm very thankful he has a good job to support US & everything, it's just the fact i hate not having his presents at home with baby & I! i hate not being able to sleep at night because I'm so worried if he's safe & okay!

THIS SITUATION SUCKS!

JR works overnight 10pm-7am and I work mornings 6am-2pm! Sometimes I pick up evening shift 2pm-10pm! When JR gets off I'm already at work & when I get off he's either fixing to get some rest for work or already at work! It depends what shift I work that day! We see each other for like 2 hours & than it's kiss, i love you, be safe, call me, see you tomorrow=/

SERIOUSLY!?! UGH..

On our days off, we do nothing but family quality time together! We basically leave our house in the morning and don't come back till late night! Family activities at home or family dinner dates! All of that MATTER'S! All of that COUNTS! All of that means the WORLD to US!

We take advantage of this opportunity when we get it! These are the days I wish will never end, but than it's back to REALITY! Back to our daily routine! Between all of this we definitely make sure De'shawn is well nourished & taken care of! HE'S OUR #1 PRIORITY!

I know I complain about this subject all the time but I hate it...We both hate it! BUT- WE DEAL WITH IT!

This is how life is treating us for now! We just have to LIVE, LEARN & APPRECIATE it! Heavenly Father has a plan for EVERYONE & EVERYTHING and I can't wait to see what HE has in store for US...

...what matters the MOST...

...My EVERYTHING...

I wouldn't trade them for

silver nor gold!

I put them BEFORE anything in this world after our Heavenly Father...

I thank the man above everyday for blessing me with such an amazing hard working husband & outrageous handsome son!

They changed my life in ways i can't explain-

They taught me the true meaning of

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!

They make me feel HAPPY & IMPORTANT everytime I feel like giving up..

the joy, love and warmth they bring to my life

sets me to another level..A LEVEL

that makes me look at life in a whole different prospective!

I'm proud to be a WIFE& MOM to my handsome boyz...

I wouldn't ask to change or share this special bond

we have with eachother, with

anyone or anywhere else..

For that I will ALWAYS LOVE & CHERISH them in my heart FOREVER!

THA MISTER ♥

daEdaE ♥

WITHOUT my BOYZ, TOMORROW wouldn't be worth the WAIT & YESTERDAY wouldn't be worth REMEMBERING!

I lalaLOVE my BABIES...

...living LIFE to the fullest♥ ...

So, 2009-2010 has been a very CRAZY & BLESSED year for my LIL family & myself! There were LOTS of changes & decision made whether if it were good or bad, we were so very grateful for the many tribulations we were put through and blessings upon our family! I BELIEVE everything happens for a reason so that GOOD things can fall together & in the right place!

June 2009, was and still is a day i will NEVER forget; my husband & I got married after being together for five year

s=) We got married in court! We didn't have a big wedding, nor did we invite any families or friends to attend, besides our son & witnesses! We both were too excited to finally start this new chapter in our lives! We both plan in the near future to renew our vows & invite both families/ friends to attend and celebrate with us=)

I can honestly say & witnessed the many back to back blessings my family received after we got married! BLESSINGS? WHAT ARE BLESSINGS? WHERE DO THEY COME FROM? HOW DO I RECEIVE THEM? Are the questions I've always asked myself! I NEVER knew what blessings were till i actually experienced it! February 5, 2007, was a day we received such a special spirit a very warmth blessing in our lives, our son De'Shawn; ) I NEVER knew having a child could make someone's life worth living! I never knew that something so small could affect my life in so many different ways. I never knew I could love someone so much! Truly a Blessing!

My relationship with my husband grew stronger than it ever been! Our laughs are limitless, Our friendship is countless and Our Love for one another is ENDLESS! We don't go to bed mad at eachother nor do we miss saying "I LOVE YOU," to eachother everyday! We treat everyday like it's our Last!

We finally got our own place to do whatever we please! A car that takes us from A to B without having to depend on everyone! These are ALL the blessings we received less than a year! Of course there were a lot more, but these are my mainz=) It's so amazing actually witnessing such a wonderful opportunity in this crazy life we live in! I've gained a lot of wisdom and knowledge through all thee obstacles in my life! We've learned to appreciate and be thankful for the things we have and not take anything for granted! We've learned to forgive and forget not only ourselves, but our enemies as well!

We tell eachother everyday that one of these days everything will come together and make perfect sense, but for now we going to continue to live our lives to the fullest with no regrets/ no looking backs! Be grateful for eachother and keep reminding ourselves that everything happens for a reason...