... NEVER say NEVER...

Lately, I been really thinking about having another baby, but I just can't. Well at least not right now. Maybe, when I'm done with school, we can have another baby, so that way we can be well situated,financially set and stable. So we're definitely aiming for next year LOL. My husband been hounding me about baby #2 for thee longest time. Jr told me that, he wants his lil princess. AWWW, so cute him! The funny thing is that, I always told myself I'm NEVER going to have anymore kids. That De'Shawn was going to be my only child. Well, I totally lied to myself LOL.
After witnessing the births of my beautiful neices and handsome nephews really got me thinking about starting on baby #2. They're sooo precious. Especially when I shop at Target or Old Navy, they have the cutest kids clothes ever. Plus, my De'Shawn is growing up way too fast and he hates when I call him "baby," but I STILL do. He wants to be called and be treated like a BIG boy. *Tearz* my baby is not a baby anymore. That's a sign for me to start on baby # 2. Now that I have these instincts about having another baby. I told myself to NEVER say NEVER again.

ISN'T HE SO PRECIOUS? BABY HUNGRY, MUCH?!?!

... A LiL uPdAtE...

So, like ever since school started, I've been really stressed out about everything. School started 2-3 weeks ago and already I have non-stop homework everyday, quizzes/ tests every other day and essays/ projects every week. I know, right!?! That's college for yah! On top of ALL that I still work full-time and carter to my boys needs as a full-time wife and mommy. Can you say CRAZINESS!?! My schedule is all booked out for the next two months. If I'm not at work or school, I'm at home with my bEbEz chill'n and spending QT together. The bad thing about it; is that I take all my frustrations out on my husband. ALL he does is sit there and let me. I get so mad at him when he does that because I feel like he doesn't care or is not paying any attention to me! DRAMATIC MUCH!?!?!LOL... It pisses him off that I feel that way especially when I tell him he doesn't care.hehe. I mean don't get me wrong, I know my husband cares A LOT and supports me all the way with school and everything I'm trying to accomplish in life. It's just that I'm so overwhelmed with everything ALL at once. So I attack him. I know, that's not a good excuse, but my husband know's what I'm going through and he knows that I love him no matter what. Eh, it's hard for me to explain myself sometimes. ANYWAYS...LOL...

No one said it was going to be easy. I just need to maintain a positive attitude and do my BEST! I know ALL this stressing out and being frustrated with the world is going to pay off in the long run . WISH ME LUCK ♥

...SUNDAY...

TODAY WAS A BEAUTIFUL SABBATH. MY POOR HUSBAND GOT OFF WORK AT 7AM AND CHURCH DIDN'T START TILL 9AM, OF COURSE HE WAS WAY TIRED, BUT HE STILL GOT READY AND WENT WITH US TO CHURCH. ON OUR WAY TO CHURCH WE DECIDED TO STAY FOR SACRAMENT AND SUNDAY SCHOOL. WE NEVER STAY FOR SUNDAY SCHOOL. WE JUST GO FOR SACRAMENT AND LEAVE AFTERWARDS...

SACRAMENT WAS NICE. THE TALKS WERE WAY SWEET AND WE FELT THE SPIRIT. THIS SUNDAY WAS ALSO OUR FIRST TIME PAYING TITHING AND FELT SO GOOD ABOUT IT.

THAN IT WAS TIME FOR SUNDAY SCHOOL. FIRST, I TOOK SHAWN TO NURSEY. I THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA CRY AND NOT WANT ME TO LEAVE. BUT HE WAS ACTUALLY GOOD. HE WHISPERED IN MY EAR FOR ME TO GO TO MY SCHOOL( THAT'S WHAT HE CALLED IT) THAT HE WAS GOING TO STAY WITH HIS FRIENDS.LOL I THOUGHT THAT WAS WAY TOO CUTE.

AS I WAS LEAVING TO GO TO MY CLASS, I COULDN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT MY SON. I THINK I WAS MORE SCARED THAT I WAS LEAVING HIM BY HIMSELF WITH RANDOM PEOPLE. I KNOW THEIR OUR CHURCH FAMILIES, BUT KEEP IN MIND THIS WAS OUR FIRST TIME STAYING FOR SUNDAY SCHOOL. AS PARANOID I WAS, I KEPT CHECKING IF MY SON WAS OKAY ...

FINALLY SISTER PHILLIPS TOLD ME TO NOT WORRY THAT IF ANYTHING HAPPENS SHE WAS GOING TO LET ME KNOW. I FELT A LITTLE BETTER AFTER SHE TOLD ME THAT, BUT I WAS STILL WORRIED. AFTER SUNDAY SCHOOL I WENT TO CHECK UP ON MY SON BEFORE I WENT TO RELIEF SOCIETY.

I TOOK HIM TO USE THE BATHROOM AND MADE SURE HE WAS ALRIGHT. ON OUR WAY TO THE BATHROOM HE MENTIONED THAT HE WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME WITH THE KIDS AND HE KEPT THANKING ME. BEFORE HE WENT BACK IN NURSEY HE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID, "MAMA I'M OKAY."

I WANTED TO CRY, BUT I DIDN'T BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO LOOK STUPID. AFTER MY SON TOLD ME THAT, ALL MY WORRIES DISAPPEAR.

AFTER CHURCH WE CAME HOME AND KNOCKED OUT. WE DIDN'T EAT, I WAS SURPRISED BUT WE WERE TOO EXHAUSTED.

WE WOKE UP ATE DINNER & ENDED OUR SABBATH WATCHING ALVIN & THE CHIPMUNK'S. THAN IT WAS TIME FOR DADDY TO GO TO WORK...BOO!! WE SAID A PRAYER AS A FAMILY AND OFF HE WENT. WE LOOK FORWARD TO GO TO CHURCH NEXT SUNDAY AND HOPEFULLY I'M NOT AS PARANOID AS I WAS TODAY LOL.

... wHERe dID tIME gO!?!!....

DE'SHAWN IS NOW 3 YEAR'S OLD..

HiS BIRTHDAY WAS ON FEBRUARY 5, 2010...

IT'S AMAZING HOW FAST HE'S GROWING...

LAST TIME WE LOOK, HE WAS JUST A LITTLE BABY...

WE MISS THOSE DAYS;( AT THE SAME TIME WE'RE GAINING MORE BEAUTIFUL

MEMORIES AS HE GROWS...

WE WISH HE COULD STAY LIKE THIS FOREVER, BUT

WE LOVE TO WATCH HIM GROW, IT'S SUCH A BEAUTIFUL THING;)

NOW, HE'S FOREVER TALKING AND ACTS LIKE HE GROWN! LOL

I THINK IT'S FUNNY, WELL NOT THE TALKING PART LOL!!

IT CAN BE ANNOYING SOMETIMES LOL!!! BUT OTHER THAN THAT

I LOVE MY SON AT THIS AGE.

DE'SHAWN IS NOW:

45 POUNDS AND 4FT.

HE IS TOTALLY OFF THE CHART.LOL... BEEN OFF THE CHART FROM DAY ONE.

DE'SHAWN IS THEE MOST RANDOMNESS KID I'VE EVER KNOWN.

(HE GETS IT FROM HIS MAMA AHAHA..)

NBFR, THIS KID SPEAKS HIS MIND. WHETHER IF IT'S GOOD OR BAD

HE'S GONNA SAY IT.

EVERYDAY WHEN I COME HOME FROM WORK OR SCHOOL,

HE ALWAYS GREETS ME BY SAYING " I MISS YOUR BOOTY BEBE!" LOL...

AT THE SAME TIME

HE IS SUCH A GREAT HELPER, VERY OBEDIENT, AND A GOOD LISTENER.

HE LOVES TO CLEAN, BUT NOT HIS ROOM LOL...

HE LOVES TO READ...

HE LOVES TO PLAY WITH HIS COUSIN'S ...

HE LOVE'S THE SUPER HERO SERIES...

HE LOVE'S MOCKING ME EVERYTIME I YELL AT HIM...LOL!

HE'S VERY PICKY WHEN IT COMES TO FOOD!!

HE CAN EAT RICE ALL DAY.

HAMBURGER HELPER AND SCRABBLED EGGS IS HIS FAVORITE .

EVERYTHING ELSE IS GROSS TO HIM.

HE HATES WHEN HE GET'S NO ATTENTION...

HE HATES WHEN I WAKE HIM UP EARLY IN THE MORNING LOL.

HE SERIOUSLY HATES WHEN HIS DADDY & MOMMY ARE MAD AT EACHOTHER.

IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE DE'SHAWN KNOWS ACTUALLY WHEN WE'RE IN THIS

SITUATION. HE MAKES US APOLOGIZE TO EACHOTHER.

IT'S WAY CUTE. LIFE WOULDN'T BE THE SAME WITHOUT HIM.

HIS FAVORITE SONG IS, "JESUS LOVES THE LITTLE CHILDREN'S"

FAVORITE COLORS ARE RED & BLUE.

HE LOVES DANCING TO HIS DADDY'S SONGS.

DE'SHAWN HAS A UNIQUE PERSONALITY I WOULDN'T CHANGE FOR THE WORLD.

HE BRINGS JOY AND COMFORT TO OUR HOME.

WE ARE SO GRATEFUL TO HAVE DE'SHAWN AS OUR SON.

WE GIVE GLORY TO HEAVENLY FATHER EVERYDAY FOR BLESSING US WITH A HANDSOME OUTRAGEOUS SON. WE PRAY THAT HEAVENLY FATHER CONTINUES

TO GUIDE AND BLESS DE'SHAWN TO GROW AND LEARN TO BE

A GREAT SON THAT HE IS.

OUR LOVE FOR YOU SON IS MORE THAN WORDS ITSELF.

... fOR eTeRniTY...

On March 27,2011 my husband & I along with my handsome baby boy are getting sealed to the Salt Lake City Temple in Utah!

I mentioned in one of my blogs before this one, that my husband & I were going to renew our vows and have a BIG celebration. Well, before I got baptized the Elder's were teaching me about temples that families can be together forever. Getting sealed in the temple is like renewing our vows again, but it's more deep. Instead of saying to death to us part. We say for all to ETERNITY.

These words are so beautiful and strong. I thought to myself, "man, it's amazing how everything is falling in place for my lil family and I if we just keep our faith and continue to serve the Lord.

This is what I always wanted. I wanted to renew our vows and have that BIG wedding every girl dreamed about.

AND to know that I'm going to be with my boyz forever just brings joy to my heart.

WE'RE so EXCITED for our special day...

This is our MAIN goal as a family we're aiming to ACHIEVE.

Just thinking about this event gives me butterflies and goosebumps.

WE can't wait to make this PROMISE with God and to EACHOTHER.

♥ my family to the FULLEST!

... mISS'n tha 801 state...

I've Never thought I'll say this, but I SERIOUSLY miss UTAH!!;(

I miss the beautiful weather in the Fall, Spring, and the Summer season. It's so pretty. Winter in the other hand I dislike strongly LOL... I can't stand snow and when it snow's in Utah during winter, it SNOW'S!!!

I hate Utah in the begining just because I wasn't use to the environment. BUT, after living there for almost three year's, I got use to everything and I will move back in a heart beat. Utah is a nice family orientated state for people that's all about family. People say there's NOTHING to do in Utah or Utah is so BORING, but it's what you make of it. It's how you live your life.

Anyways, lately my husband been nagging me for us to move back to Utah ever since we moved back to washington. It breaks my heart to see or hear that my husband is homesick. I've been there and trust me it's not a good feeling. I'm not a selfish person, especially when it comes to my boyz.

So therefore, I made a promise to my husband that, when I finish school ( that'll be next year 2011) we are moving back to Utah for good. Of course my husband was happy to hear that, but he was hoping it was going to be sooner than that LOL...but i told him not to worry, to be patient it'll be worth the wait. My son is ready too...LOL... he misses his papa & gma A LOT! De'Shawn is forever asking us to take him to Utah especially when he's mad at us...LOL.

WE'RE SO EXCITED FOR THE TOILOLO'S FAMILY REUNION THIS JULY. WE ARE SO COUNTING DOWN THE MONTHS, WEEKS, & DAYS. We need this little vacation with our families and we DEFINITELY can't wait to MOVE back to STAY: )