... Love Honestly ...

" In a split second every&anything can be gone&taken away from you..Take time to realize wat u have&be thankful for it.
tomorrow isn't promised. So Live Free, Love Honestly, Laugh Loud && Speak Wisely."

This week has been a crazy and stressful week for me and as usual I'm forever taking it out on my husband, I know all kinds of bad='[. As I read this quote I felt my tears running down my face just because I know deep down in my heart that I've been taking Junior for granted. The last thing I want to hear is that something happened to him or Junior leaving me for another woman that will give him the appreciation he deserves. I would literally die. Ugh, I'm seriously crying writing this blog! Just thinking about it breaks my heart in so many ways it's hard for me to explain.

I'm so sorry babe...

Junior has done nothing, but be good to me and our son. He is a hard working man and would literally die for the both of us. Everytime I get mad at a friend or a family member I always take it out on Junior and my poor husband would be so humble about the situation. When I get mad, I'm seriously a LiL devil Ahaha... I would call him names and just ignore him for hours and hours ( what a B**ch, yeah?!),

but NEVER did he EVER walked away or leave my side. Never has he EVER made me feel alone or made me feel like I'm not worth nothing. NEVER has he EVER hit or cheated on me. NEVER has he hurt me in any way.

Don't get me wrong we had/have our arguments and our up's and down's, and we definetly get on eachothers nerves, but what marry couples doesn't?!!. Junior would literally sit there and act ( so I think) like he ain't paying attention or doesn't care ( which fires and pumps my blood pressure up LoL) or he would man handle ( which turns me on..Lmbo) to stop me from wild'N out LoL...

But honestIy, I seriously need to stop taking my husband for granted and appreciate him everyday, every minute, & every second because I totally believe in karma and I would be out of my mind messing with her and because I Love him...

Don't get me wrong, I love my husband with all of me and would seriously do anything and drop everything for him, I appreciate him loving me for who I am and for all of me and just dealing/ putting up with my crazy bipolar self LoL. I don't do it on purpose

I have this problem that I let everything build up inside that makes me feel like I can't express the way I feel to anyone because I feel like they will never understand, which makes me act the way I do towards him.

I know, totally NOT a good excuse to treat my husband the way I do. Junior is my world, this whole situation of me taking my husband for granted made me realize how much of a good man I have and made me realize how much I love him more more everyday. I need to take advantage of his love AND love him back the same way he loves me. I wouldn't trade Junior for any other guy in this world AND I wouldn't choose anyone else to go through this crazy life with me!

I'm so sorry my love... I LOVE YOU TO NO END!